Far Away from All we Know

Today isn't a good day for me to start this blog. Why? because I think a blog is suppose to focus on daily life-one day at a time right? And right now I'm looking at life as a whole-the big picture perhaps is how I'd like to put it. At least today I am and the big picture bothers me in a lot of ways today.... So right now there are many things on my mind..so many things it isn't worth talking about. One thing that is foremost on my mind is the fact that due to money I will not see my family this year for Thanksgiving or Christmas. We are in a new state and don't know anyone so the holidays which are so important to me will be spent with just us..which is very sad to me and makes me wonder how long I can do that...live without family and friends nearby.Joe works such long hours everyday and he has been working 6 days a week..on salary of course so we aren't getting extra compensation in money for the extra time.So most days it is me and my little 9 month old man.He doesn't talk yet so the lack of conversation and brain stimulization is making my mind concentrate on everything...and some of those things aren't good and make me want to cry or scream or both.So I will sign off for now..until I have something to focus on that has a point in the end....